December 2010
video
we video taped eachother on our adventure to the wilderness, and i finally saw how i looked in everybodies eyes, and it was the first time in my life that i truly felt pretty, freshly dyed red hair, a big smile, and i relized that who i am was good enough for me, for the first time, in the longest time
why i dont like you
because you’re the stereotypical cheerleader prep. if i saw you on the street i would think you were a slut. im not trying to be mean, but cheerleaders, highschool inparticular, pretend to be all inocent you:check, go and be slutty behind everybodies back you:check, and do everything i would hate to see someone do to them selves. you do know that cheerleaders get the reputation, especially...
i hate being mean to people, it sucks.
damn.
when i stand next to you in chorus class, i feel so ugly, your who i want to be. the care free, person who everybody loves. but im just the tall girl in a sea of short people, the one who’s awkward, the one who is so selfconcious, the one, who everybody knows isnt good enough
ive officially gone selective vegitarian . and it feels good. im glad to show through my day to day habits on how i want the world to be. not that i want to change other people, but its nice that i can show the world who i am. finally.
i wish
that there was no more discrimination
that people could be who they wanted to be with out being told that it was “unconventional”
that i could always be in your arms
that i didnt have to wipe your tears, because they were nonexistant
that it was just you and me
that 21 days went by in a heart beat
that comparisons were never made
that grades didnt matter
that i could be...